meh

frustration!

it comes with the territory because there are some major technical fundamentals being adjusted but my intonation and pitch sense when singing is totally off kilter, and I just feel like a complete dumbass wasting people's time when pitch is brought to my attention again and again.

obviously just pounding my way through it isn't working, so it's time for a different tack. teacher suggested I use my violin to heighten pitch sensitivity. I remember having to do this before (as a violinist and unlearning crappy well-tempered tuning), so maybe it'll help. I'm not entirely sure because the problem isn't that I can't hear these pitch differences - I can. I'm just unsure of how to deal with the fact that the pitch that I hear in my head when I'm singing is not the pitch that other people hear across the room.

GAH.